Am I “Weird”?

Ok. I realize the word “different” has a broad variety. Any number of people have any number of what their definition of “different” is. Example: religion. What the Catholic faith sees as everyday is different to, say, the Jewish faith. Let me explain. Catholicism has Confirmation and Judaism has Bar/Bat Mitzvahs at 13 years old to symbolize becoming an adult…at least in the eyes of the religion.

But for today’s definition, I want to draw on personal issues. I have Autism, that’s no secret. In fact it is probably the best-known thing about me. So due to that, I act “differently” than the average “normal” person. It is something I can’t help. My brain is just wired differently. I am impulsive. I say things before I think about it. It’s the epitome of the saying “Look Before You Leap”. It has gotten me into trouble in the past.

For a majority of my life, people have told me I needed to “act normal”. Well, people who have told me that, I got news for ya…I AM NOT FUCKING NORMAL! And neither are you! Autism is my “normal”. So take that “act normal” bullshit and shove it! Sorry to use harsh language but this is my blog and my opinions. If you do not approve…stop reading! It’s as simple as that.

Ok, look. This is a divisive post, I know. I highly doubt anyone reading this will agree with me on every little thing on what “weird” and “normal” are. I’d be shocked if they did. But to me, my normal is being weird and eccentric. I do not necessarily fit in with the rest of my family. I am the only one in the family with an official Autism diagnosis. Anyone in my family who reads this, I love you, and God bless you but unless you have an Autism diagnosis, it is 100% impossible to appreciate what I go through on a daily basis. In fact, I find it flat-out insulting if you say you do.

Actually, while I am on that topic/rant/tangent/whatever you want to call it, I have Autism (No…shocking…) and I don’t understand everything about it. Nor do I pretend to. My Autism impacts me differently than it does any of my friends on the Spectrum. I am still trying to fully realize how my Autism impacts me…and I’m 30! I was diagnosed when I was 7 years old so I have had 23 years to figure it out and still can’t.

So to conclude, I know this post was kinda all over the place. For that, I apologize. But to loop back to my title and make it a complete 360, am I weird? Well, yeah. But aren’t we all in our own way? So what are your thoughts on this topic? Do you agree? Disagree? Let me know in the comments and thanks for reading!

-Tom

Author: AuTom Spectrum Blog

I have Autism and am a self-advocate and public speaker. On the side I do stand-up comedy. I live in Baltimore County and have an AMAZING girlfriend

One thought on “Am I “Weird”?”

  1. I think we are both our own normal. I don’t feel like we are weird like some people think of us. People need to accept us for who we are.

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