I think everyone wants one of two things in life, if not both. Those two things are to succeed in life and to be happy. For me, my happiness is my success, and vice-versa. I have had enormous success in my Autism self-advocacy career. This is a feeling of euphoria. Of the ultimate form of joy and happiness. I don’t know how else to word it. And this is not narcissism. I just genuinely LOVE being “that guy”. Let me explain. I’m the guy my friends and coworkers rely and depend on. I love helping people! It’s who I am.
Ok, look. I’m like you. I’m human. I have off days that are total shit or I feel totally fucked. I’m sure you’ve had those “Why am I here?”/“Why me?”/“I don’t care or matter anymore” days. Me too. But what gets me through? Honestly it’s the thought and knowledge that I am needed. And I am not just talking about my work or being the “Voice of Autism in Baltimore” or whatever. That doesn’t matter to me. Ok, obviously all that does matter, but I mean just knowing I am loved and wanted by my family, my friends, my girlfriend…I’ll take this a step further…even my dog. In the end, that’s what really matters to me.
So I view my happiness as my ultimate success. I welcome people being able to talk to me openly. So if you wanna connect, here I am. Feel free to reach out at email@example.com. Thanks and welcome to another friendship!