INNER PEACE

I think writing gives me inner peace. It’s an outlet for me to express myself and not feel any pressure to edit or censor myself. I can be me and write freely and get everything out of my system. This goes both ways. Whether I am mad, sad, glad…whatever…I know I can write and not get into trouble because I am express myself and not ever say a word. Actually, I take that back. I don’t know how many people read my blog or what I write, but I try to keep it positive. Reason being? I do not want to be sued or accused of bias or racism or anything by writing something I do not necessarily mean. If I write something purely out of anger, it could potentially come back to bite me in the ass. And I don’t want that. Specifically, for that reason, I do not publish every single thing I write on my blog. I keep some things to myself or in my drawer at home. I write to vent and hopefully not offend anyone or bring anyone down with me. But I feel my blog and my writing is my outlet to share my experiences. Not necessarily feelings but experiences and how I feel about some topics I feel need to be addressed. If I am overly excited or offended about something and think it needs to be addressed, then yes I am going to write about it on my blog. For me, writing really does help defuse a situation or get my anxiety out or pump me up for an event. I highly doubt anyone has ever gotten into trouble for thinking something but not verbalizing it or acting on it. And if I write something derogatory against someone I am pissed at at that point in time and I get over it, that’s on my blog and the Internet forever, even if I delete the post. I cannot tell you how many times my dad has gotten on my nerves, but I have never posted anything about him online…until now. I argue with my dad a lot but I do not want to ruin him or people to get the wrong idea about my family. I still love my dad, but I just get annoyed with him sometime. I usually get over it fairly quickly. So I write to flush it out, so to speak. And if I don’t write, if I know I can contain myself, I go to the source and tell that person why they are annoying to me at that point in time. Stuff happens. People get pissed at each other all the time. We learn and move on. I have full freedom and control writing because, again, I do not want people to get the wrong idea about me or others. I am a good person and do not want to tarnish my reputation. I can’t risk anything with my status. I love the positivity I get and do not want to mess that up by slipping up and saying or posting something I don’t mean. So writing is my sanctuary, figuratively speaking. I feel better when I write about something than if I said something to someone and potentially ruined a relationship. So I want to hear from you. How do you find nirvana or inner peace? Let me know in the comments and thanks for reading!

-Tom

Author: AuTom Spectrum Blog

I have Autism and am a self-advocate and public speaker. On the side I do stand-up comedy. I live in Baltimore County and have an AMAZING girlfriend

One thought on “INNER PEACE”

  1. What gives me inner peace is writing in my journal and usually listening to religious music which helps me to calm myself and find peace at difficult moments.

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