So do I prefer to be alone or in the company of others? I think it depends on my mood. I am usually VERY  social and love talking to people. But every once in awhile, it all gets to be too much and I want time to myself. At my agency here in Baltimore, this is a Hell of a lot easier said than done. My agency is kind of overpopulated at the moment, so those moments that I have to myself are sporadic and far and few. Not that I’m complaining about the agency. Then there are people who, for whatever reason, just annoy the Hell out of me and insist on talking to me, even when I tell them I want to be left alone. I can’t be a total dick and tell people “Hey…fuck off! You’re annoying the Hell out of me!” much as I want to say it. When I am upset, it shows. Maybe not physically but in my mannerisms. However, I am usually not the kind of person to bottle up all my anger, sadness or angst either. If I am pissed off or sad or whatever, I talk to people. BUT I only talk to people I know can relate to me and I feel safe venting to them. I know all too well-this has happened-when if I am sad, pissed, or whatever and I keep it bottled up too long, sooner or later, it’ll all come pouring out at once like mouth diarrhea and nobody wants mouth diarrhea coming out of them or getting on them. No pun intended, but both parties will feel like shit. And I am too nice a person for that to happen. I am OK at people-ing, and am usually extremely very social and love talking to people. If there is one thing I admire about myself, if I can say that without sounding narcissistic, is my ability to relate to people and willingness to talk to people. I do enjoy the company of others most of the time, but it depends on (A): the people or (B): my mood that day. Some days, I am eager to interact with others and other days are my “Go Away and Leave Me Alone!” days. But enough about me and my manic moods and negativity on people occasionally. I want to hear from you guys. Do you consider yourselves social, shut-ins, or both like me? Comment in the comments section and as usual, thanks for reading!


Author: AuTom Spectrum Blog

I have Autism and am a self-advocate and public speaker. On the side I do stand-up comedy. I live in Baltimore County and have an AMAZING girlfriend

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