OK. So I gotta put it out there. Every once in awhile, an opportunity comes up that you’d be an idiot not to accept. I got that recently. I got an invite through the agency I work with to do an interview with a “reporter” from the WASHINGTON POST about Autism and work. Um…hello! What kind of an idiot would I have to be as an Autism self-advocate to turn this down? Having said that, I am scared shitless to do it. Why? Well, nerves mostly. What if I mess up or something slips out? It has been known to happen with me. I guess I will have to put my anxiety aside and just give it my all. I mean, everyone keeps telling me I will great, but I do not wanna get over-confident. But at the same time I don’t wanna act like a wimp in front of the reporter either.
Part of me is going, “Why me?” Not in a poor, pitiful way. Just that I seem to get picked for everything having to do with Autism advocacy around Baltimore. NO JOKE! Like, I am the “go-to” guy for Autism advocacy. HOW THE HELL DID THAT HAPPEN?! I mean, I appreciate the publicity and am honored, but I can’t be the only one around here that cares about Autism.
On the other hand, as I just said, I am honored they picked me. The other part of me is going, “OK Tom…you got this! You know this like the back of your hand. TESTIFY! Show off! Flaunt your talent!” That’s the issue, though. I don’t want to sound like a know-it-all about Autism. Because I don’t know all there is to know about Autism and never will. Hell, I don’t think anyone can or will. Research all you want…unless you live with Autism, you will never understand it. Even then, don’t pretend to know how it impacts others. Simply put: You Can’t!
So if you read the Washington Post article when it comes out, please…DO NOT TAKE ANYTHING I SAY PERSONALLY OR AS AN OFFRONT! Again, it is about me, me, me. Not being selfish but that’s the truth of it. Take the article for what it is…an article about a guy with Autism who has a job. That’s all…and wish me luck. I am probably gonna need it…and maybe some “liquid courage” 😉 (Irish descent).